Ok funk, I’m well and truly ready to be done with you!
I’m feeling a little better today, but that’s a result of some hard work from Col. Endless patience, lots of cuddles, wiping inexplicable tears and words of reassurance and encouragement.
I’m so lucky to have such a supportive husband, cause Lord knows I put him through the mill sometimes! Not deliberately of course, not something I chose to do, I’m just lucky that when things get hard, I have such a good man standing beside me to help pull me through.
He did mention last night with a taste of fear in his voice that he’s never seen me in a funk that lasted this long and that he was starting to get a little worried about me. I guess that’s what’s made me pull myself out a bit this morning, ’cause that’s really saying something.
This weekend was a busy wedding-weekend. I am trying to take care of as much of the out of pocket expenses as we can ahead of time, so we’re not left having to run around paying people on the day, or with huge outstanding bills to settle when it’s all said and done.
We didn’t do too badly at all, I ordered a few ‘picture props’ for some fun pictures, my replacement shoes (since my original ones are NOT dance friendly), my flower girls dress, toasting flutes, favour bags, some things for our out of town bags, my bridesmaids shoes and Col’s wedding ring.
We paid for our cake and photographer in full and paid for the other half of my dress too. I had a moment of heart-stopping panic when she went to get my dress from the back, for me to try on. You know that moment of, ‘Holy crap what if it’s not how I remember it being?’ or ‘Did I pick the right one?’. This was the first time I’d seen it in the colour I ordered it in, when I first tried it on in Iowa, they only had it in gold – so it was almost like seeing it for the first time.
Thankfully all was well and the dress was as stunning as I’d remembered it being. I just have no idea how I’m going to dance in it, but everyone has that problem! lol! Not only that, but when I tried it on, it was so big that she had to clip it to me – yay for seeing weight loss progress! She measured me and told me that I’ve lost 7 inches since I ordered it – which, to be honest, left me feeling pretty proud of myself.
Saturday evening, we were sitting in our pjs watching TV at around 6.25pm when I get a message from my friend Ann asking if we wanted to do anything. We hadn’t seen them in a while, so when she suggested margaritas and dinner we got ready just in time for her and Paul to pick us up a half hour later. It was good fun, margaritas, fajitas and, on the way home, Gelato and chit-chat til almost midnight. It was nice – and I managed to tolerate the sitting outside heat just fine, definitely a sign that I’ve somewhat acclimated in the last year.
Sunday we cleaned out the garage – not very exciting, not something that either of us wanted to do, but I’d been at Col for a while now to take care of business and I decided to help him. We didn’t have much out there, most of it was boxes that hadn’t been broken down that were taking up way more space than necessary so we spent over an hour breaking them down in some crazy-ass 100 degree heat. But when we’d finished we felt a sense of achievement (and soaked through to boot!). We just need to get a brush and sweep the place out, re-spray it for bugs and we’re good to go.
Col decided to use his merit reward from work to get us a new BBQ, it’s not a huge one, but it’s bigger than we both expected, I think we’ll maybe fire that up at some stage this week. My funk has even gotten me to the point that I can’t be bothered cooking – which is unusual for me as I love cooking and often find it theraputic, I also haven’t knitted all week or read a single page in my book. Woah, it is bad! lol!
I was intending on going back to water aerobics yesterday, after a 3 week break, however no sooner were the words out of my mouth, the sky opened up and we had thunderstorms all evening! Typical!
Not much else going on here in the McMaster abode, it’s just all about getting the wedding stuff taken care of at the minute. Col told me last night that for a ‘first time planner’ I’m doing a great job. I told him that everyones wedding tends to be their first time planning and he replied with , ‘Yes, but most people have a lot more help than you, or at least a mother. You’re doing most of this on your own and it hasn’t gone unnoticed, I’m proud of you’. He was on a roll yesterday with the nice things he said to me, as not too long before that, he’d said that nothing beats how he feels when we dance together – although I’m pretty sure that’s cause I tend to stomp on his feet on occassion and we all know how unpleasant that can be 😉 lol!
I currently have about 8 or 9 active lists, which is so unlike me as I usually only have 1. I love lists, I love making them and find them relaxing. I love checking things off lists and derive a great sense of satisfaction when I complete every task on a list, crumple the list up and toss it in the bin. With these lists, I’m adding almost as much as I’m taking off which makes me feel somewhat disorganised, even though I know I’m not doing too badly overall.
It’s taken me all day to write this post, I’ve been distracted. Busy as a bee trying to get things done (more shopping and trying to condense my to-do lists and it’s getting to the stage I need to give my full attention and stop trying to do a billion things at once!
Until next time 🙂
